Monday, June 19, 2006, 8:12 am

Ok, it is time... i need to know.

You are making this all seem like we were drifting apart... like we are just discovering that we weren't meant to be.

I know that's not true... i was not drifting from you. And you? That's not the whole story, is it?

You told me you were upset with me because i was texting you and calling you and you weren't able to spend enough time with your friends.

You told me that you wanted to spend time with them, because you got to know them and they are good people.

What about me? Am i not good people?

And now, you tell me that the feelings haven't changed and you still care for me, but you won't tell me if you have started seeing someone because you don't want me to "dwell on it." Well, what message am i supposed to get? I'm not good people? If you are seeing someone new and have moved on, that's going to give me something to dwell on?

I'd just like to know how and why you were able to move on so quickly? Falling in love with someone isn't a choice... it is chance. Staying in love with someone isn't chance... it takes work, sometimes hard work. Falling OUT of love with someone isn't chance... you have to make a CHOICE to fall out of love with someone.

And if you haven't fallen OUT of love with me... then what is going on?

You gave up on me. I need to know why. I need to know why you are throwing it all away... if it is someone else, fine. If it is something i did, fine again, but please tell me, because it is probably something i can change... if not for you, for the next person.

If it is something i didn't do... tell me. If you care about me so much, you need to see that you need to help me get through this. I never gave up on you... hell, i still haven't! Since you have given up on me, i need to know why.

I don't think it is too much to ask, do you?